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admin October 7th, 2007

Afiq’s birthday is around the corner. October 14th (Sunday!!!) but I still don’t know what to get for him. Yes, I’ve given the PS3 to him as his birthday present but I don’t feel it like a birthday present since I gave it to him about 1.5 months earlier than the real date. Hehehe. He’s always there when I need him and he’s always try his best to fulfill my needs and wants, so, I want to make his 21st birthday to be the most memorable one ever.

Oh yea! I forgot to tell you guys about the ring he gave me on September 20, 2007. It’s a 10K 2-tone gold diamond ring. I was so excited beyond words when I received this ring! He said the ring is a symbol of our time together. I am the type that do not wear jewelery, so, this becomes my first ring ever. Last year, he gave me a Tiffany & Co bracelets that I wear on my left hand. This ring, he puts it on my right hand finger. I always feel the warmth and lovely feeling when I see this ring on my hand.

Back when we were in INTEC (International Education Center, Section 17, Shah Alam), I was the Vice President of ATUSA while Afiq was the Vice Secretary. We started become close when we were working on the INTEC Mathematics & Science Carnival since he had to do most of the reports and I had to do most of the paperworks. We were close friends, nothing special, since both of us are already taken.

One funny event that I remember was the “double date”. Din, Afiq’s closest friend in INTEC, had a huge crush on Atiqah, the cutest member of the ATU11. Din wanted to go out with Atiqah but he’s the very shy type. Lol. Then, Afiq made his move and called Atiqah to set up a date with Din. Since Din was soooooooooooooo shy, Din asked Afiq to come along. But wouldn’t it be weird to be tagging along on someone else’s date? So, he invited me to become his “date”. So, 4 of us went together to MidValley and we watched Madagascar.

After that, Din feels more comfortable and we went on our separate ways. On the way back to INTEC, Afiq brought me to Sunway Pyramid to find a birthday present for me. Coincidentally, my birthday fell on the previous day - and I got the bag that I really wanted. Hehehe. It was a B.U.M. bag which I wouldn’t buy by myself since it costs RM65. Huhuhu. Thanks Afiq =)

We became close friends and we shared our stories about our partner. He told me about his girlfriend, Syira, and I told him about my boyfriend, Fadhlan. I even showed him the photo album I made, consist of a lot of pictures of only me and Fadhlan. I brought my camera to almost every date that I had with Fadhlan and I treasured them like he is my lifeline. I even told him how much I loved Fadhlan and how much I wanted to marry him (Well, I told that to almost everyone). Meanwhile, Afiq shared his stories about Syira, how they started to be together when they were in MRSM Jasin. He always tell me about his dates with Syira and deep inside, I feel a bit of jealousy since my boyfriend was far away in Australia. Even if Fadhlan were in Malaysia, he won’t go out with me as much. After each dates, he will sent Syira to her front door to ensure her safety. In INTEC, I used to tell everyone that Syira is the luckiest girl on earth.

Enough said, we became close friends but we have distances since we know that each other is taken.

Unknowingly, both of us applied to Stevens Institute of Technology, where we are studying right now. We were not that close during the first semester since we were busy trying to get ourself fit into the society and enduring the changes. I became lonely as my friends were busy touring around USA (as all my girlfriends are MARA students and they received $770 per month while I receive only $144 per month as JPA student) and I was left behind. I won’t be able to match up their expenditure on travels since 5 months of my pocket money = 1 month of theirs. Afiq saw that I was lonely and he brought me to walk around Manhattan that winter (2005) and he even made me as his personal barbie doll. He brought me to a clothes department store and match me up with different kind of clothes and dresses. It was kinda funny since I was not the dressy type. A shirt and a pants are enough. But he wants me to wear professional and trendy clothes, so, he bought me a lot of new dresses. He also bought a bear for me:

He made this video:

We became closer day by day. However, he had lots of problem with Syira and I was quite messed up with Fadhlan. Don’t ask me what the problems are since I want to forget everything. So, last year, Afiq broke up with Syira and he confessed that he liked me a lot. I told him that since we were going back to Malaysia for Winter 2006, why don’t each of us give a chance to Syira and Fadhlan to redeem themselves. Probably the problems were raised because of long-distance relationship. He said he had enough with Syira and I can give Fadhlan chances if I want to.

However, I had become bitter with Fadhlan. I just couldn’t accept someone that does the same mistake over and over again. He said sorry but after that, he did the same thing again. Last year, everything gave me a lot of headaches. And yea, I ended up in the hospital a couple of times. I feel that I couldn’t live without Afiq since he helped me a lot and is always there for me, but I loved Fadhlan a lot (Yea, he’s being my first love and I rejected 10 people because of him). I still considered Afiq as my best friend. So, I gave this a long thought. People always say that for girls, we need to be with a guy who loves us instead of a guy that we love.

When I was back in Malaysia, I decided to break up with Fadhlan - and then, he admitted that he was seeing some other girl in Australia. I was shocked but I pretended not to since all this while, I kept denying it when my mother said “Fadhlan already has someone else”, and when my friends said “Forget Fadhlan, he has other girl”. I trusted Fadhlan a lot, and this is what he had done to me. I was terrified, I was sad, I was everything bad. Sometimes, I just wished that I’m dead. Until now, I was wondering, who is that mean girl that just reaped someone else’s boyfriend off. Or most probably, Fadhlan started to “tackle” this girl since I know, Fadhlan loves to see cute girls. He always tell me “this girl is cute, that girl is a beauty, blahblahblah”. If your boyfriend is that type, watch out. It’s a negative sign. I should have seen this coming but I ignored it because I trusted him so much, more than I trusted myself. Argh. Whatever. It was the worst mistake I have ever done.

Well, I spent years crying over Fadhlan - since in INTEC. So, that means, I endured 2 years of misery before finally breaking up with him. So, we were together for about 3 years. The break up was extremely hard on me and I have to move on and forget, before I lost control of myself and started to have suiciding thoughts all over again. Afiq proved his honesty and reliability and we officially become a couple early this year. Afiq helped me to forget Fadhlan. For the first few weeks Afiq and I got together, I admitted to Afiq that I still loved Fadhlan and he was cool with it (I don’t like Fadhlan anymore right now). Afiq is always there when I need him.

I tell Afiq that I love Afiq everyday and this really helped me to decrease my attachment to Fadhlan. I still remember Fadhlan sometimes but Afiq is the one who have helped me to go through everything. Anytime I miss Fadhlan, I’ll tell Afiq about it and he’ll bring me outside and do some fun things and I’ll forget about him. He mended my heart..

So, right now, I forget about Fadhlan already and I have forgiven him already. However, he has already lost my trust and he will never get it back. And I have already thrown away the album that I treasured.

Now, I have Afiq who will always be there when I need him.. he mended my heart and now my heart is full again! =)

I am now the luckiest girl in the whole world!!!! I love him sooooooooo much!!! He is the most wonderful present I ever got in my whole life. Thank you Allah! =) And Insya Allah, we will get married in 2009 (I am hoping to get married next year. Hehehhe.. but the chances is only 1%..lol) and I will absolutely invite all of you to our wedding. Now, what should I get for his birthday????

P/S: If you manage to read this post until the end, I would like to congratulate you and I will do a mini-review of your blog as a present!! Just leave a comment on what should I get for Afiq’s birthday and any other things that you would like to say. Don’t forget to include your blogs’s URL =)

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